A Poets Philosophy

Letters to myself – “Pages of Time”

  I’ve been thinking about trying to write more frequently. The simple reason being I have so much on my mind these days. Things bother me, and yet I can’t quite put the puzzle together. I constantly keep going backward in my mind, flipping through the ancient pages of time. Looking for the pages that got lost along the way. Now more than ever I have the desire to find those lost pages blowing like a tumbleweed in my subconscious mind. 

  Perhaps caused from my childhood. Things that got locked away and swept under a heavy rug. Collecting dust when walked upon but never being moved to sweep the dust away. Searching for the clues to unlock the doors closed, once open to experience life as we know it. Now just torn pages blowing in a universal black swirl of emotions that paint pictures of thunder clouds hanging over my head. 

  I feel we can only help ourselves. No one can give our life direction or understanding. We must find our own understanding of feelings, words, and thoughts. Once again reading my thoughts, I find it hard to imagine thinking so deeply, looking into a bottomless well. It’s as if an out-of-body experience reading my thoughts that journey into the channels of my mind. What is the purpose I write upon this blank paper in a futile effort to understand my mind, my subconscious states? 

  Either what we think is real or what we believe is real. What we believe is our own truth and well others must find their own way to their truth. What lies within the pages of their mind? Traveling thru our subconscious looking for a log to grab hold of, in a rushing river heading for a waterfall of pages of my life. Grabbing onto the first strong log I see to prevent me from falling deeply into my subconscious mind… Riding it down the rushing clear waterfall to journey along a fresh stream within my mind. Searching for those pages, lost in time.

© Eva Marie Cagley

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR Eva Marie Ann Cagley I was born and raised in Waterloo Iowa, where I spent most of my time working with teenagers in a group home and at a Juvenile Detention Center as a counselor. Working with teenagers gave me great joy, having had none of my own… I come from a large family of nine children having six brothers and two sisters. I have always had a love for poetry. It has always been a dream of mine to publish a book of my own poems. My first interest in poetry was when I was in Sixth grade English class and we were studying Robert Frost. I have always had a passion for poetry and believe it is a gift from God…It gives me great pleasure to share my poetry with others. There's little else to say about me as my poetry reflects whom I am. My beliefs, perspectives, trials and tribulations, hopes and despair, dreams of all my lives’ journeys… Given with love I leave you now with a place Where Poets Dream! You can find me on are Facebook… My group on face-book is called Lets Talk Poetry Group You can also find me on Youtube. My books: Available on Amazon Kindle & Lulu.com “Where Poets Dream” “Dancing in Heaven” “I Shall Always Think of You” “The Airwaves of My Soul” “In the Garden of My Mind” “God’s Christmas Miracle”

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